I was listening to someone talk about meditation the other day. There was something they said that made an impression on me. They said that the appreciation for things being special fades. And that they needed to return to the practice to sustain that experience. That enlightenment wasn’t a thing you achieved but something you did again and again.
I reacted to these words because they were things I might have said at one point. But they are also words that tripped me up. Hidden in these words is a logic that makes meditation into a religion. Supplications to a deity are now replaced by hours on a meditation mat. When it doesn’t work it’s not the fault of the practice. It’s just that I haven’t worked harder or I haven’t done something right.